Disclosure: This is not because I am sad or upset or anything. Till date there's been only one person I've felt so strongly about and that's the reason for her to be the muse for most of my work. This is just a poem, not a reflection of my state of mind.

I turn up the volume,
So i can't hear myself think...
I look at the sun,
so it hides my dark within.

I look out the window,
& I see the children play.
I see my own reflection,
on the hazy waters glaze.

For I know if things quiet down,
or if the storng light dims down.
I'd hear your voice & your face would reappear.

And I turn up the volume,
So I can't hear myself think...

Well hope someone likes that 8-)

OK! here's the deal

There's this girl that I want to ask out to lunch or dinner or coffee and i've not admitted this to anyone, but I'm bloody scared of doing it because I'm quite sure she's going to refuse.

WHAT DO I DO? PLZ HELP...

Siddharth

Day: 17th Septemper (My B'Day)

"just wanted to say hi! hope u'r dong great"
That's the message that I ended up send'g her ofcourse without any reply as expected.

"Hey sid! HAPPY B'DAY" I heard over the phone, heard the sweet voice of the girl from Delhi! Now that was enough to make the rest of the day go like a hot knife through butter. After not being able to sleep all night because of calls every 15-30 minutes i finally slept at 5AM only to be woken up by another call at 6. DON'T PEOPLE EVER SLEEP??? *secretly enjoying it*. Came to the office to be greeted by my friends with some nice cake (from another frnds B'Day, but cake never the less) a card and a CD that I picked out :)

Well later in the evening people came over and so did swamy's latest love interest "Dhenuka" (literally translated it means 'cow', go figure...) and we all ended up having a hell of a time. as the party came to an end I left some of the gang back to their respected holes swamy, gujju and dhenuka along with me decided to go grab a cup of coffee. after sneeking into (not really) a medical college and having coffee gujju and i decided to get some juice. Finally back home all happy and High I switched on "Iris" and smiled.

How amazing it is to be alive. Kendy! u'r still to wish me.

Telling the truth won't do,
for that was a surprise to be
God alone knows that I really wanted to make a change
in you and be the first to greatly surprise you.
But it all fell on me and I feel like simply taking my life away though it won't help and God forbid.
I know exactly how you feel about me
for it's not the first time it's happening
and I doubt if you'd ever again give me a genuine smile.
Am sorry from the bottom most part of my heart
and it was never meant to be that way
and will never happen.
But though I've hurt you and I also hurt
I still love myself for I sacrificed myself
and went beyond my pride to make it worth.
Though all gone through and wasted.
God had a perfect reason
and from someone who madly
and frankly love you I'll miss you.
You were and always have been sweet,
I miss the way we used to drive the whole city wild,
I miss your touch comfort and more so Imiss you.
I know I'll never ever be with you again
but whoever loves you better love you the way I did
coz one day you'll realise I love you
but maybe now it's time to move on.
I love you and as long as you happy
I'm happy too and I'll desperately miss you!